Tomorrow, February 10th, 2012 will be the day our twin sons, Eli and Caleb are delivered. It won't be a "typical" delivery, because our sweet Caleb passed away at 25 weeks (over two months ago). We are so thankful that Eli has done well, and he is ready to make his appearance at 36.6 weeks. I realize some may have not known about our situation, and I thought I should give an update so that no one is taken off guard, when we have pictures of only one baby. I've gone back and forth about how much I should share, whether it was appropriate, whether I was ready--I pray that I haven't squandered an opportunity to show the goodness of God even in our tragedy. Maybe I can somehow redeem that--
How do you prepare for a day like tomorrow? I'm not quite sure. My heart has been preparing for the last two months, carrying around life and death in my womb, moving between grief and happiness, uneasiness and peace. The Lord has been gracious in lending His strength, and I'm thankful to belong to a compassionate Father who weeps with those who mourn. His son, Jesus Christ, knew what it was like to live in world of heartache and sin. Not only can he relate to our hurt in this life, he also ushered in the kingdom of God, where I find my hope as I live in between two kingdoms.
There are many aspects of this journey that I'd like to share (and maybe will at some point) but I'm mainly writing to ask for prayers from our brothers and sisters in Christ, that we will honor Him in our sorrow and joy, and pray for a safe delivery for Eli and myself tomorrow. We are so thankful for the generosity and love already shown by our friends and family, their prayers, visits, etc. etc. Just another evidence of God pouring out His love on us. He is good, and even in our sufferings, I've found it to be even more true.
